// beauty in the dissonance \\

dreamy idealist.
intrigued by the mystery of life & all of its pleasures & pains.
here you'll find strivings to live well, love well, & thrive in the gray-ness of life.

“I began to realize how important it was to be an enthusiast in life. If you are interested in something, no matter what it is, go at it full speed ahead. Embrace it with both arms, hug it, love it and above all become passionate about it. Lukewarm is no good.”

—   Roald Dahl

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Unintentionally

Tonight we were storm chasers, unintentionally.
We found gravity hill after winding through rain covered roads, lit by a constant strobe show of lightning.
Every corner of the sky flashed, every inch throbbed with energy.
We made it back to civilization at the tail of the storm, climbed atop my car and stared in awe at the flashes in the distance that had been directly above us just moments ago.
You inched closer to me as you felt my body shiver in the cool breeze until our arms, hips, legs, feet were adjacent, pressed side to side, unintentionally intimate.
After spending time finding faces in the clouds, they suddenly cleared and underneath them was an array of stars that were hidden beneath the previous cloud blanket.
We named the constellations and spotted shooting stars and satellites.
It felt right to put some music on, set a soundtrack for this moment.
The first few plucks of the guitar were heard through my phone speakers.
Bon Iver. We were silent.
It was reverberating through my bones, that ethereal voice lifting the hair on my arms even higher.
‘And at once I knew I was not magnificent’
It’s how we felt in that moment.
Small and insignificant in comparison to the magnitude of the stars above, each a sun in its own galaxy.
It’s humbling and it’s mesmerizing but it’s also a little sad, how big and infinite and important we feel our lives are, then we realize we are but specs in the abyss of the universe.
We drove home in silence, with the electrically charged air blowing in through the windows, rerunning the night’s events through our minds, wondering if it all was real.

“It is dreadful, the total spiritual impotence I suffer at this time, just because it is combined with a consuming longing, with a spiritual ardor - and yet so without form that I don’t even know what it is I am missing.”

—   Søren Kierkegaard, Journals and Papers

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“I think we still live in a culture that assumes that men are single by choice and women are single because no one wants them.”

“Food doesn’t taste better or worse when documented by Instagram. Laughter is as genuine over Skype as it would be sharing a sofa. Pay attention. Take in nature, hold someone’s hand, read a book. But don’t ever apologize for snapping a photo of a sunrise after a hike, or blogging about the excitement of having a crush, or updating your goodreads account. All of these things are good and should be celebrated. Smile at strangers on the sidewalk and like your friends’ selfies. It’s all good for the human spirit.”

—   cogitoergoblog on Facebook (via raysofthesun)

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So much adventure packed in today.

“While I know myself as a creation of God, I am also obligated to realize and remember that everyone else and everything else are also God’s creation.”

—   Maya Angelou 

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“When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person’s body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.”

—   Elizabeth Gilbert

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“The sun is perfect and you woke this morning. You have enough language in your mouth to be understood. You have a name, and someone wants to call it. Five fingers on your hand and someone wants to hold it. If we just start there, every beautiful thing that has and will ever exist is possible. If we start there, everything, for a moment, is right in the world.”

—   Warsan Shire 

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“And now go, and make interesting mistakes, make amazing mistakes, make glorious and fantastic mistakes. Break rules. Leave the world more interesting for your being here. Make good art.”

—   Neil Gaiman

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Just gonna keep pretending I’m in Seattle with all the beautiful things and all the beautiful people.  [discovery park - 7/2/14]

“Such is beauty. Its variety is infinite, its possibility is endless. In normal life all may have it and have it yet again. The world is full of it; and yet today the mass of human beings are choked away from it, and their lives distorted and made ugly. This is not only wrong, it is silly. Who shall right this well-nigh universal failing. Who shall let this world be beautiful? Who shall restore men the glory of sunsets and the peace of quiet sleep?”

—   

W. E. B. Du Bois, from Vol. 32 No. 6 of the Crisis, October 1926 

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Some things I learned in my 22nd year of life:

Milestones induce reflection. And so here are some post-birthday ponderings….

- people usually come around; be patient and let time be the teacher.
- not everything is analyzable; some things you just need to let lie.
- communication is hard work; people can’t read your mind and you shouldn’t expect them to. and also vice versa.. it goes both ways.
- if you think someone might end up being important to you, don’t ignore that. there is beauty in the smallest of interactions and there is potential where you may least expect it.
- don’t get too comfortable. people say you should do one thing that scares you every single day… that is not just some inspirational cliche. the more you get used to a comfortable life, the harder it becomes to take even the smallest risks.
- have an opinion. it’s fine to enjoy harmony and not want to open cans of worms, but when you’ve lived enough and seen enough and felt enough of life to lean a certain way on something, you’ve developed a valid opinion and it deserves to be known.
- don’t be a doormat. hold fast to your servant spirit and eagerness to please, but do not be afraid to call people out on what is wrong or inappropriate or demeaning to you or others as human beings.
- it’s okay to change your mind. it’s okay to get a college degree in a field you’re not meant for. it’s okay to admit you don’t like something and would rather do something else.
- be grateful, but also be picky. the way you live your life is your art.
- get used to talking on the phone. this is the 21st century, but hearing an actual human voice is far more intimate than 160 characters.
- people don’t always deserve an explanation. you have the right to disclose what you want and what you don’t.
- don’t diminish yourself. you are a piece of God’s handiwork.
- everyone else is also God’s handiwork; you mustn’t forget this.
- give people the benefit of the doubt. all behaviors come from a source, and we all have different sources.
- you cannot and should not ignore the need to be creative. trust those creative, artistic instincts.