Tonight we were storm chasers, unintentionally.
We found gravity hill after winding through rain covered roads, lit by a constant strobe show of lightning.
Every corner of the sky flashed, every inch throbbed with energy.
We made it back to civilization at the tail of the storm, climbed atop my car and stared in awe at the flashes in the distance that had been directly above us just moments ago.
You inched closer to me as you felt my body shiver in the cool breeze until our arms, hips, legs, feet were adjacent, pressed side to side, unintentionally intimate.
After spending time finding faces in the clouds, they suddenly cleared and underneath them was an array of stars that were hidden beneath the previous cloud blanket.
We named the constellations and spotted shooting stars and satellites.
It felt right to put some music on, set a soundtrack for this moment.
The first few plucks of the guitar were heard through my phone speakers.
Bon Iver. We were silent.
It was reverberating through my bones, that ethereal voice lifting the hair on my arms even higher.
‘And at once I knew I was not magnificent’
It’s how we felt in that moment.
Small and insignificant in comparison to the magnitude of the stars above, each a sun in its own galaxy.
It’s humbling and it’s mesmerizing but it’s also a little sad, how big and infinite and important we feel our lives are, then we realize we are but specs in the abyss of the universe.
We drove home in silence, with the electrically charged air blowing in through the windows, rerunning the night’s events through our minds, wondering if it all was real.
- people usually come around; be patient and let time be the teacher.
- not everything is analyzable; some things you just need to let lie.
- communication is hard work; people can’t read your mind and you shouldn’t expect them to. and also vice versa.. it goes both ways.
- if you think someone might end up being important to you, don’t ignore that. there is beauty in the smallest of interactions and there is potential where you may least expect it.
- don’t get too comfortable. people say you should do one thing that scares you every single day… that is not just some inspirational cliche. the more you get used to a comfortable life, the harder it becomes to take even the smallest risks.
- have an opinion. it’s fine to enjoy harmony and not want to open cans of worms, but when you’ve lived enough and seen enough and felt enough of life to lean a certain way on something, you’ve developed a valid opinion and it deserves to be known.
- don’t be a doormat. hold fast to your servant spirit and eagerness to please, but do not be afraid to call people out on what is wrong or inappropriate or demeaning to you or others as human beings.
- it’s okay to change your mind. it’s okay to get a college degree in a field you’re not meant for. it’s okay to admit you don’t like something and would rather do something else.
- be grateful, but also be picky. the way you live your life is your art.
- get used to talking on the phone. this is the 21st century, but hearing an actual human voice is far more intimate than 160 characters.
- people don’t always deserve an explanation. you have the right to disclose what you want and what you don’t.
- don’t diminish yourself. you are a piece of God’s handiwork.
- everyone else is also God’s handiwork; you mustn’t forget this.
- give people the benefit of the doubt. all behaviors come from a source, and we all have different sources.
- you cannot and should not ignore the need to be creative. trust those creative, artistic instincts.